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I’m one tired puppy…Either the narcolepsy has inched forward in severity or it’s not narcolepsy at all.  I’m actually reminded of an episode of House I saw a while ago. Dr. House was arguing over a diagnosis and said something like “if you go to three different specialists with the same set of symptoms, you’re likely to get three different diagnoses”;  ie: if you go to a neurologist they’re going to say ‘it’s your brain’, etc. Well, I was tired all the time so I went to a sleep doctor.

Did the sleep tests, did the blood tests. Got the “it’s probably narcolepsy” diagnosis.  It was never 100%, but I guess it fit. So I go on Concerta and for the most part I do ok for a while.

Lately though, holy shit.  From what I understand, I’m on a pretty good dosage of speed and some days I feel like I haven’t taken it.  It’s always been hard to wake up and take it, sort of a catch-22 there, but lately it’s become brutal.  Not only am I e-fucking-xhausted I’m also very weak and sore.  I feel like I’ve had a really hard workout the previous evening, my muscles are that tired.

I’m not doing my chores, I’m not even doing the fun stuff I want to do. I can’t be buggered to sit at my computer upstairs and install a game to play. I don’t feel like I have the energy to draw. I just want to sleep or sit here and stare at the tube until bedtime.  That sounds like depression, I know, but it’s really not. I’ve been there/done that and with depression it’s more like a lack of interest in things you once found enjoyable, an indifference.  I *want* to do these things, I’m just too tired and weak feeling.

I’m sleeping more than I have in years but it’s never enough. I’ve not known a refreshing sleep in…well as long as I can remember. I hate to join the billions of Google Doctors, but I think I’m going to ask my doctor about the possiblity of chronic fatigue. Or at least say “hey, I think something’s different and/or still wrong with me”. I always get the feeling that if you go to a doctor with your own idea, they automatically shut it down.  I can’t really fault that…if someone else suggests “hey, I bet orange would be a good color for that” I will go out of my way to not use it.  But maybe my doctor isn’t a dick like I am.

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Mixed Evening

It’s really odd to go from raging to mesmerized then back into murder mode.

We drove on to the city to see the Boston ballet do Sleeping Beauty. It was just gorgeous. I’ve only been to one ballet ever when some company came to my college but this was above and beyond The set was unbelievable. It’s amazing what they did with paint, fabric, lighting and a fog machine. The costumes were great and the lead dancer was just ridiculous.

Of course that was sandwiched between my gps being FREAKED OUY by Boston, telling me to make turns that didn’t exist or down closed roads. Some creepy parking attendant that wanted my keys (no. fucking. way. ), finally finding a place…that I couldn’t find again afterwards, and a heroic amount of traffic on the way home.

But seeing the look on my baby’s face watching the dance? All worth it.

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Drawring

This one is kinda clumsy but it made me giggle and I actually hit upon a couple things in the quick sketches that I want to explore. I need to set up a gallery or a lightbox. Anyway:

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The Start of Something

Well, Erika has convinced me that instead of just complaining about my drawing skills I should maybe do something about it.  So, this is the first of this new effort.  Each Friday I will put up a three panel comic, or abstract or some kind of sketch with the hopes that with a deadline I WILL draw something, and with the fear of humiliation I’ll try to practise and get better. This one is pretty much ground zero. It can only get better…right?

Clicky for the full panel

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No More “Mansquito”??

SciFi channel puts the final nail in the coffin by alienating (see what i did there?) it’s CORE FUCKING AUDIENCE and scouring away anything we, as geek-americans, still watched on that sad, shitty channel.

Here’s the full article, though I’m probably going to quote from it anyway. If it doesn’t make you want to break someone in half, you’re probably better off not reading the rest of this post, which is sure to be a rambling, angry list of swear words and nonsense.  SciFi Channel Aims to…

To sum up: “SciFi Channel” is changing their name to “SyFy” in order to remove the association with “science” and “fiction” but to keep the pronunciation the same. They’re also going to stop showing “good” shows and replacing it with “the same shit everyone else plays.”

What is SO fucking wrong about building a nitch and sticking with it? Geeks and scifi nerds aren’t going anywhere. Fuckin, MOST of the shows we like are reruns anyway, there’s like no overhead!  You could fill the lineup with nothing but star trek reruns, doctor who, and cheeto adverts and it would be the only channel I’d watch. We have good jobs, we buy gadgets we don’t need, and have nothing but free time.

But nah.  We want to be all things to all people until all channels are the same and simulcast wrestling and doctor fucking phil.

I like this quote:

“The name Sci Fi has been associated with geeks and dysfunctional, antisocial boys in their basements with video games and stuff like that, as opposed to the general public and the female audience in particular,” said TV historian Tim Brooks…

Mhmm. “geeks” and “nerds” are also often associated with “IT Department” and “Tech Support”, so…good luck with getting your Email setup at the office. Have fun with that enormous pile of fetish porn you’re going to suddenly find in your network share. Enjoy having “ps - I’m a giant douche bag and wear edible panties” added to the signature line of every email you send from your Blackberry.

“When we tested this new name, the thing that we got back from our 18-to-34 techno-savvy crowd, which is quite a lot of our audience, is actually this is how you’d text it,” Mr. Howe said.

That wasn’t a compliment.

“It made us feel much cooler, much more cutting-edge, much more hip, which was kind of bang-on what we wanted to achieve communication-wise.”

“Hip.” A word ONLY said by 50-something people trying to relate to people half their age. You. Are a douche.

The network plans to make the changeover July 7, when it will launch the new series “Warehouse 13.”

The series, about a secret government facility in South Dakota where all mysterious relics and supernatural souvenirs are housed, is emblematic of the channel’s programming direction.

“It is a dramedy and it is set in the here and now. It’s a kind of an Indiana Jones meets ‘Moonlighting’ meets ‘The X-Files,’” Mr. Howe said. “This is a very accessible, relatable, fun show.”

I wish I could hate you to death.  This show…is going to be…SO MONUMENTALLY bad.  It will make Hackers seem like Neuromancer. It will make the last Indiana Jones movie seem like the FIRST Indiana Jones movie.  It will harvest jokes and plots from original movies and shows that “tested well in our target demographic”, boil them in a giant steel vat with cat shit and blood from their own vile, putrid veins, and spoon feed the resulting turd margarita to a braindead, ignorant, ass picking audience. All 7 of them.

Mr. Howe said the network is close to announcing a title and description of the project, which will launch as both a subscription-based, massively multiplayer online game and a television series.

Die.

“We need an umbrella brand we can attach to new businesses: Sci Fi games, Sci Fi kids…

Know who else had brand recognition? The Nazis.

It’s official, after the final episode of Battlestar Galactica I have no reason to watch your shitty channel, “SyFy”.

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Open the pod bay doors, Hal…

The machines beat me this weekend, holy shit. At one point 75% of our computers gave us the big finger and declared their independance from our tyranny and decided that while we may take their lives, we will never take their freedom.  And I guess by “lives” they mean “warranty” and by “freedom” I suppose…fuck it, I don’t know what they meant. Hard drives died, viri spread, things were formatted, millions dead.  It was like the end of the movie Glory.

The future is paved with downloads of gigs of patches and software, finding of recovery disks and many virus scans.  I have a dream too. I also have a best buy credit card and a microcenter within 15 miles.  Never again, never forget. Fight on. *fist in the air*

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The Daystar

We’re out walking the dog for pretty much the first time in months! It’s supposed to be like 60 today. …and tonight: wintery mix. Ah New England.

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iPhone Fuckery

Testing out the wordpress app for the new iPhone. Fuck this thing, man! I spend more time playing with my phone than I do on my xbox. It’s not right. I’m sitting in front of a perfectly good computer, pecking tiny,virtual keys. THE FUTURE!!

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Wow

I went to Dunkin Donuts this morning for breakfast. They um. They had kind of a manager’s special donut in honor of the new president. Yay. It um. It had red, white, and blue sprinkles…on a chocolate donut.

No I’m not joking. I can’t decide if that’s awesome or very offensive.  It’s definitely delicious though.

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The word “Cunting” is not used enough

I follow Stephen Fry’s Twitter so I saw this unfold in realtime. It was pretty awesome.

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